While writing Second Chances I must admit that I didn’t focus as heavily on a playlist for inspiration as I had my previous three books. (Here’s a little extra tidbit for you) I’m a trained dancer (well, not Broadway trained or anything but I danced and taught for many years) and when the song, "Say Something" came out a choreographed routine played out in my head. This is how many of my characters come to me as well. So, yeah, I might need medication or professional help but…Anyway, I pictured a girl through the years of her life, growing up, changing from a child into a woman. The dancers would each blend into the next, getting older as they go, the younger one leaving (“Say something, I'm giving up on you.”) because her current self didn’t stop her, she knew she couldn’t if she was going to grow. Then the more I started listening to the song and running that routine through my head the more I started seeing the character that is now Raina Montgomery and her relationship with Pete Roman...
“Say something, I'm giving up on you”…Raina finally got to the point where she realizes that if Pete doesn’t “say something” and admit his true feeling to her then it’s time for her give up on him and follow her own dreams. That finally happens the night that Pete plans to tell her everything but hesitates. He leaves; she calls her aunt and plans her move to NYC. Before Pete wakes up the next morning, she’s gone.
“I'll be the one if you want me to. Anywhere I would've followed you”…Raina always yearned to be “the one” for Pete, the only, like he was for her. She’d planned on giving up her model/acting dreams for a life with him but Pete couldn’t figure out how to tell her he loved her. By the time he had, she was gone.
“And I... I'm feeling so small. It was over my head, I know nothing at all. And I... will stumble and fall. I'm still learning to love, just starting to crawl”…Raina is beautiful. Pete calls her Princess from the first day they met when he found her tiara and sashes in a box but he means it, she’s beautiful, his princess. Raina knows what people see on the outside, she looks in the mirror, she sees it too but it’s on the inside that she feels different. Pete, unintentionally, has wreaked havoc on her self-esteem causing Raina to feel small, not worthy of the relationship she yearns for with him. She allows him to take her body when what she really wants him to ask for is her heart.
When they began, she was inexperienced (“over my head, I know nothing at all”) and Pete was slow and gentle with her, easing her into their “friends with benefits” scenario. Unfortunately, Raina really didn’t know what she was getting herself into. She had no way of knowing that she’d “stumble and fall”…fall head over heels in love with Pete Roman.
“I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you”…Raina finally must admit defeat. She wishes she could have touched Pete the way he had her but by that final night when he doesn’t admit his feelings, she knows it time to swallow her pride and even though he’s the one that she loves, she decides to say goodbye…
A piece of info about me...my favorite author that writes contemporary romance is Shayla Black